All posts by Robin

I'm a woman in my early thirties living in North Carolina, USA, and I have a lot of varied interests; I love creative writing, music composition, web design, surfing the Internet, thinking out loud, and gaming. And yes, my glasses are crooked. :)

Chord Colors: Perfect Pitch and Synesthesia

Last year, I referred to colors and music as being completely intertwined in my head–it’s a positive condition known as synesthesia, or as I like to refer to it, my “brain feature.” Every time I listen to music, my inner sight explodes in colors; it has always been this way, even when I was a very little girl and wasn’t as involved with the production of music as I am these days.

Though I’ve shared this particular picture with you before, here is my complete, colored piano scale, created by my combination of perfect pitch and synesthesia:

This pitch-color connection is an instantaneous response to music, something I don’t have to think about to “see;” it’s just there. And today, I thought I’d share some of that experience, in the form of created images capturing the colors of various musical chords.

(Before we begin, please excuse the relatively low artistic quality of these images; I can’t quite seem to recapture exactly how each chord “looks” to me when it is played, but I have done my best. :P)

B-flat Major


To me, B-flat, whether major or minor, has always had a little shade of darkness to it on the “left” side of the pitch; it’s not sad or evil darkness, just kind of shaded. Here, the B-flat major chord is described, with shadowy teal, light blue, and bright green (B-flat, D, and F, respectively).

B Minor


The 80s called and said they want their pastel palette back. LOL! This is how B minor looks in my head–a wash of lilac and white in the background (the note of B, with the lightness of the major chord), with a little light blue (D) and deep blue-green (F-sharp) mixed in. It’s a gracefully beautiful key, but also somewhat reserved and icy-feeling.

C Major


C major has always appeared bright and colorful in my head–almost too colorful! The golden-yellow C, the pale pink E, and the bright red G are a bit jarring together; this color combination is probably why I associate C major with childhood, especially toys. But you can’t say C major isn’t cheerful enough! 😛

C Minor


In stark contrast to the brightness of C major, C minor has always seemed broodingly dark, even a little slinky, especially with the red of G combined with the red-orange of E-flat and the gold-to-black gradient in the background. (The added darkness in the background is nearly always present in my head when minor chords are played, excepting B minor.)

C-Sharp Major


This is the only key for which very bright silver sparkles appear scattered across the background; I’ve done a poor imitation here, but this gives some idea. The bright green of F and the rich blue of A-flat do not overpower the deep violet and silvery shimmer of the background, which is possibly one reason this is my favorite key to hear music in.

C-Sharp Minor


I love both the major and minor keys of C-sharp, and with good reason–the tones are beautiful, as are the color combinations in my head. In its minor form, C-sharp’s violet is darker, with less emphasis on the sparkles in the background, and the light-pink E adds a more monochromatic dimension to the chord color. I can become wrapped in the chord very easily…it’s melancholy and yet beautiful.

F Major


F major, like C major, is very bright and happy, with the off-white A and deep golden C accenting the vibrant green F. It feels festive and unapologetic, which might be one reason I’ve always associated the key of F major with celebrations and lots of people.

G Major


Can’t miss G major! :O What an explosion of nearly-patriotic colors, with the powerful red G, soft lavender B, and bright blue D. This key feels energetic and powerful, even when it’s used for an easygoing song–I guess it’s all that red. xD (Odd fact: as American as this particular chord palette looks, it’s interesting to note that our national anthem is usually sung in A-flat major instead of G major. Oh well, there’s no accounting for my brain’s sound-color associations!)

To Learn More About Synesthesia

Synesthesia @ Wikipedia.org
Mixed Signals–for synesthetes and non-synesthetes alike
American Synesthesia Association
The Synesthesia Battery of Tests–find out if you’re a synesthete, too!

100 Essential Reads, Kitten Riding a Tortoise, Accurate Disney Costumes, and “I Could Do That”

100 Essential Reads for the Lifelong Learner
Books to expand your thinking and even change your perspective…

Kitten Riding a Tortoise
LOL, and the kitten looks so comfortable! xD

Disney Princesses in Accurate Costumes
Princess Aurora in 1485 English court fashions, Belle in 1770s French formal dress, and Jasmine in pre-Islamic Middle Eastern dress? These and more, behind the click!

I Could Do That: A Pinterest Board
A Pinterest board of DIY crafts…check it out!

Old-School Gaming, part II: Super Mario Kart for SNES

Continuing my foray down Gaming Memory Lane, today I bring you a post about Super Mario Kart for SNES, the game that introduced me to the “racing-game” genre, and probably taught me how to drive. (I may or may not be kidding, considering how I have to drive on the Interstate. xD)


As this commercial for Super Mario Kart shows, this game was (and still is) tons of fun. With a more realistic 3-D gaming environment (especially for 1992!), players were able to orient themselves a little better on the screen. (Not to mention that the choice of characters involved Princess Toadstool for the first time since Super Mario Bros. 2–this delighted my 7-year-old self.)

Drive with me along my fond SMK memories for a little while, via these awesome Youtube videos.


This was one of the more fun secrets in the game–taking the shortcut on the Ghost Valley level. I loved hopping across this little bridge not only in Time Trials (like this video), but during real races. What an ego boost to get around the course in so little time!


I enjoyed the Bowser’s Castle level, even though it was a little scary to play through; on this track, you could get some pretty awesome sliding action going if you concentrated and really worked at it…and if you avoided the Thwomps, of course. 🙂


Oh, the Rainbow Road course! It might make you dizzy, it might even make your eyes too dazzled to play, but it was AWESOME for my Lisa Frank-saturated childhood. It was one of my favorite levels, not least for the fact that I finally bested it on my 8th birthday. 😀


Oh, the horror! The Spiny Shell, the bane of every first-rate kart driver’s life. And yet, it was the unsung savior of those of us who seemed to get bumped to 8th place more than was proper. (The Spiny Shell, also known as the Blue Koopa Shell, targeted the person in first place and bowled them over; great if you’re not in first place, but if you are, well…)


I couldn’t find a SMK video to illustrate the Red Shell properly, so this one is from Mario Kart Wii. However, the mechanism is largely unchanged since 1992: the Red Shell targets the driver directly in front of you and bowls them over. Great for getting back at the cheating CPU player who just passed you for the 4th time. xD


Unlike the Red and Spiny Shells, Green Shells were randomized shells of chaos. Once fired, they would ricochet and zig-zag all over the course, only stopping when they finally hit a player. You could easily end up hurting yourself with Green Shells, but then again, you could potentially keep someone else from usurping your place. (I used to use the Green Shells as a weapon against tailgaters on the game. Kinda wish I could use a Green Shell in real life on the highway sometimes… :P)


With increased gameplay (and skill) came access to the Special Cup, the hardest levels in the game. Many a time I reset the game trying and failing to get a perfect score on the Special Cup, until I finally managed it about a year after I got the game. I remember being so happy I actually did cartwheels in the basement game room. xD


My favorite character to use on SMK, as mentioned above, was the Princess. Not only did I love playing the Princess because she was my favorite Mario-franchise video game character, but she was also the lightest (and therefore the fastest) kart in the game. Because she could hop over obstacles and skate across sand the fastest, her kart was the most forgiving of my early mistakes, and she could speed past others as I got better at playing. It was absolutely HILARIOUS to beat Bowser and even Mario in this game, doing a victory lap with the Princess waving the checkered flag–I reveled in it!

Summary

If you’ve never played Super Mario Kart (or any of the other Mario Kart racing games), I recommend it for some old-school fun. These days, the graphics may be a little dated, but the game is just as fun as ever! (I’ve recently enjoyed playing it through the Wii’s Virtual Console…ahh, reminiscing!)

Anyone Can Be Saved, Even “The Worst of Sinners”

1 Timothy 1:12-17

12 I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength, that he considered me faithful, appointing me to his service. 13 Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. 14 The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.

15 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners–of whom I am the worst. 16 But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life. 17 Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen.

This passage, as part of Paul’s first letter to Timothy included in the Bible, encapsulates what it means to be a “sinner saved by grace”, as the song goes. Paul fully acknowledges, in these verses, how undeserving he is of the grace of God, and how much more wonderful that grace is to receive when undeserved. All of us, any person alive, has this gift of grace waiting for us. None of us are righteous enough in our own merits to deserve it, but God offers it as a way to reconnect with us.

When we accept Jesus’ sacrifice as an atonement for our own sins, we accept this grace and are saved, are reconnected with God in the most powerful of ways. Even Paul, self-described as a “blasphemer,” “persecutor,” and “the worst of sinners,” came to God in the same way that anyone does–through Jesus. And, once he accepted that, then God was able to use him in mighty ways to reach others, to lead them towards the same salvation and peace that was offered him.

Those who do not know about God (or do not believe He exists) may doubt that such peace exists, or that salvation is necessary; I can personally attest that not only is salvation necessary, but that it brings the most loving peace into one’s life through a closer spiritual connection to God. (I have lived outside of that peace, and I have lived within it; I know which life I prefer much more.)

The word “salvation” is not meaningless jargon, or a pithy slogan. Instead, it means that you no longer bear the burden of payment for everything you’ve done wrong in your life. You can give that burden, that guilt, that shame, even that pain, over to God the moment you talk to Jesus honestly and ask Him to guide you through life. For Paul, this “talking to Jesus” was literally a life-changing experience (as we see in the Book of Acts)–just as it was for me, and just as it is for every person who becomes Christian.

And the best part? Once you become Christian and begin to talk to God through prayer, you will experience a peace you can’t explain, even when more troubles come than you ever expected. Somehow, even through the most trembling times, knowing that you have God to rely on brings that feeling of strength and peace. Being a Christian doesn’t mean that your life will magically become easy and carefree; it means that you’ll now have a well of heavenly strength to draw on when you need it.

Repurposed: Old Shoulder Strap on New Purse

I’m something of a purse aficionado (I write this whilst staring at a mound of empty purses from childhood in my closet…LOL). But, in recent years, I’ve stopped buying tons of different purses, and instead turned my attention toward getting one quality purse that goes with everything.

Up until a few days ago, I was carrying this one, discovered at a TJ Maxx store:

I found it to be a great, perfectly-sized little purse–when it stayed closed. Unfortunately, it had a nasty habit of popping open by itself, at all the most inconvenient times (during rain, while just walking down the street, etc.). The clasp on it was never meant to hold fast against all that I’d stuffed into it, and I had found no way to edit down what I was carrying. So I knew I probably needed to invest in another one that closed more tightly, at some point.

But I’ve always been very picky about purses, and I had liked this purse because it had such a long shoulder strap. I prefer to carry my purses with a long shoulder strap across my body, so I don’t have to hunch my shoulder up to carry it (and so potential thieves can’t take it easily). I knew what I was looking for when I eventually went shopping for a new purse, but I dreaded the process.

When I finally did decide to go hunting for a new purse, though, it didn’t take long before this one caught my eye. It was black leather, simple zip-top style, had tons of room in it, and was on sale. SOLD! 😀 😀 😀

I purchased it and got home with it…and then realized something. There was no long wraparound shoulder strap with this new one, only a short over-the-shoulder strap. I would not be able to carry it as I had been accustomed to doing. 🙁

I realized this as I was just in the middle of transferring all my stuff from the old purse to the new. After a few moments of self-ridicule, I thought, “Well, poot, I’m gonna have to go right back and return this thing!” But just as I was thinking that, my eye fell on the long shoulder strap of the old purse. Specifically, I caught sight of how the long shoulder strap was attached to the old purse.

That’s right; the shoulder strap could be unclasped from the old purse entirely. And since the old purse was black leather, the same as the new, I just unclipped the strap from the old purse, and clipped it onto the strap buckles on the new purse.

I’d really need to model this for you to show how well this works, but since I don’t have anybody to help take pics, this will have to do. I know it looks like a mess of straps, but this actually works a whole lot better–I can carry more without worrying that my purse will pop open unexpectedly, and yet I can still carry it looped cross-body stye for safety and security. This has made life much easier already! And the leather of the old purse’s strap blends in beautifully with the leather on the new purse; it doesn’t look like an add-on, but looks like it was always meant to be there. WOOT!

Just goes to show you: if you buy something that turns out to be not quite what you expected, or doesn’t quite suit your needs, look around your house before returning it. You might find a way to make your purchase work, just with a little repurposing!

The “Great Wall of Text” and Other Web Writing Mistakes

Making content for the Web is not as easy a proposition as it first sounds. At least, not if you’re going to attract readers to it. This, I have unfortunately discovered since I began running this blog; for instance, my writing style may be conversational and fairly engaging, but it’s also a little verbose. (I suffer from “Wall-of-Text Syndrome” on a daily basis. LOL)

This is a Web writing mistake that can drive away visitors–but it’s not the only one we Web content creators can make. Read on, for the 5 most common writing mistakes on the Web, and how to fix them!

Web Writing Mistakes

  1. Paragraphs that are too long (more than 5 lines)
  2. Font size smaller than 12px
  3. Font color too similar to background color
  4. No pictures to help illustrate points
  5. Using 100 words when 10 will do

How Can We Fix These Mistakes?

Thankfully, Web content is very forgiving–all you need to do is hit the backspace key and rework your sentences. And believe me, your readers will thank you for improved readability and comprehension!

#1: Break Up Long Paragraphs

Preview how your Web content looks in your layout. Are any paragraphs more than 5 lines long when contained within your divs or tables? If so, you’ll need to reword and reformat to break those longer paragraphs into smaller sections. Just like dividing larger pieces of food into smaller bits, keeping your paragraphs small makes it easier for users to digest what you’re saying.

Think about it this way: would you rather read Example #1 or Example #2, below?

Example #1
Crooked Glasses is a multi-topic blog–sounds pretty weird, but I enjoy writing it. During the week, I cover web design and development on Mondays, social commentary and philosophy on Tuesdays, Biblical analysis and application on Wednesdays, gaming and game strategies on Thursdays, Internet surfing on Fridays, and any and all forms of creativity on Saturdays. (Occasionally, I have a wildcard post on Sunday, too!) This blog has been going since January 2011 and can be followed on Twitter; I’d love to hear back from y’all about subtopics you’d like to see covered. Also, comments are enabled on every post, so if you have opinions or ideas regarding any post, feel free to click “comment!”

Example #2
Crooked Glasses is a multi-topic blog–sounds pretty weird, but I enjoy writing it.

During the week, I cover web design and development on Mondays, social commentary and philosophy on Tuesdays, Biblical analysis and application on Wednesdays, gaming and game strategies on Thursdays, Internet surfing on Fridays, and any and all forms of creativity on Saturdays. (Occasionally, I have a wildcard post on Sunday, too!)

This blog has been going since January 2011 and can be followed on Twitter; I’d love to hear back from y’all about subtopics you’d like to see covered. Also, comments are enabled on every post, so if you have opinions or ideas regarding any post, feel free to click “comment!”

Which felt easier to read? If you’re like most Web users, you probably answered Example #2–when information is spaced out in understandable chunks, it helps our brains understand it better. Spacing out content, even if you don’t rewrite it, can help our users understand what we’re writing.

#2: Enlarge Font Size

I don’t know about you, but loads of tiny font crammed onto a page doesn’t make for happy reading for me. Small font sizes are all the rage for designers who don’t want to take the focus off their layouts, but if we want our users to be able to use our sites, we need to make our content as easily-read as possible.

I’ve found that the 12pt font size works well for body content (that’s what I’m using on this blog)–it’s not so big that it overwhelms the screen, but it’s not ant-size either. We don’t want to give our users squinting wrinkles, after all!

Look at this example of the same text formatted in 8pt and 12pt:

Both use the same text (an excerpt of the famous “Lorem Ipsum” text), and the same font color. Which would you prefer to read on a computer screen?

#3: High-Contrast Text and Background

Many designers, especially beginning designers, choose to have their font colors similar to their background colors…sometimes a little too similar. (I admit, I made the same mistake in my newbie days!) As a designer, you do want your colors to match well together. It’s just that the font color and the immediate background color (behind the font) should not be almost the same color.

An example, here:

This dark brown text seems to almost vanish into the similarly-hued background. If this represents important text on your website, it’s likely your user will either ignore it completely, or try to read it but give up on it.


Putting the font in a much paler color pops against the same brown background I used in the previous example. See how much easier it is to read?

#4: Add a Couple of Explanatory Pictures

As I’ve seen for myself throughout this blog post, adding a couple of pictures really does help illustrate your points. Not only do you have to write less to explain yourself, but it further breaks up any “walls of text” that might be on your page already.

If I hadn’t done the font color and size examples in pictures, for instance, then I would have had to resort to explaining myself in words, which might otherwise have been ignored or skimmed over. Pictures draw the user’s attention and help visually summarize what you’re writing.

#5: Edit Down to One Sentence, Then Expand

This is tough. Oh, wow, is this ever tough for me. I love words, so it’s hard for me to cut the excess away. But if we want our users to read what we’ve worked so hard to write, then it needs to be concise. After all, if the user doesn’t get what he or she wants from our site as quickly as possible, they’ll go somewhere else.

One of the tricks that has really helped me with this is to edit down a paragraph into one sentence, often called a “topic sentence” in grade school. Then, I can expand my paragraph out just a little bit with enough detail to make it smooth and flowing again.

With that in mind, let’s take the text I wrote from the first example, and edit it down just a bit.

Before Editing
Crooked Glasses is a multi-topic blog–sounds pretty weird, but I enjoy writing it.

During the week, I cover web design and development on Mondays, social commentary and philosophy on Tuesdays, Biblical analysis and application on Wednesdays, gaming and game strategies on Thursdays, Internet surfing on Fridays, and any and all forms of creativity on Saturdays. (Occasionally, I have a wildcard post on Sunday, too!)

This blog has been going since January 2011 and can be followed on Twitter; I’d love to hear back from y’all about subtopics you’d like to see covered. Also, comments are enabled on every post, so if you have opinions or ideas regarding any post, feel free to click “comment!”

One-Sentence Summary
This is a multi-topic blog, covering web design, opinions, Scripture, gaming, fun links, and creativity; come read, follow, and comment!

Expanding On the Summary, Making It Sing
Web design and development! Social and philosophical opinions! Even Biblical interpretations, gaming strategies, new websites, and all the arts! If any (or all) of these topics interest you, then come visit Crooked Glasses, a rare form of blog. If you like what you see, follow us on Twitter, and leave your thoughts in the comments!

Without losing any of the main points, I was able to summarize and energize the text into a much more attractive bundle. I believe this is easier to read (and more fun to read)–what do you think?

Summary

By taking a little time to revise and reformat your words, your Web content can be infinitely more engaging and convenient for your users. And the best thing? Writing can be revised forever, so if you don’t get the fix right the first time, there’s always the Backspace key. Like I said, your users will thank you for this!

Delicate Beaded Jewelry: Not an Oxymoron

With the current beaded jewelry trend tending towards huge rocks strung on string (I’m not kidding), those of us who are drawn toward more delicate, light creations may feel somewhat at a loss.

But there is no need to despair: there are several ways to bead necklaces, bracelets, and even earrings and rings that don’t look like you just went to a jewel mine and dug something out of the wall. I was honestly quite surprised to find several tutorials and ideas for such beautiful beaded jewelry styles, so I collected my favorites and have shared them here. No heavy multi-stranded necklaces or chunky earrings here–just truly lovely pieces of wearable art!


Ombre Crystal Necklace Tutorial

Pearl Drop Earrings Tutorial

Lacy Clover Bracelet Tutorial

Beaded Rings Idea Post
(you have to “like” the Facebook page to get the tutorial)

Blue Beaded Bracelet Idea Post

Beaded Flower Necklace Idea Post
(you can purchase the tutorial)

…and I am definitely going to try the beaded rings and pearl-drop earrings tutorials. 😀 😀

Mourning Elephant, Funny Celeb Pics, Ballet Photography, and Wanelo.com

Bella the Dog Dies, Tarra the Elephant Mourns: The Story
So, the age-old question, “Do animals have real feelings?”, is finally put to rest.

Celebrity Photos by Martin Schoeller
Funny and awesome celebrity pics…some more open and honest than any we’ve seen before.

Ballet Photography by Vihao Pham
Beautiful ballet photography… it makes me want to put ballet slippers on these ole flat feet of mine.

Wanelo.com
Want to find something no one else has? Check here, for unique products you’ve never heard of!

Old-School Gaming, part I: Super Mario World for SNES

When Christmas of 1990 arrived, I had just turned six, and I got a Super Nintendo system from Santa. Oh, the joy–and oh, the hours of trying to play through the first levels of Super Mario World, which, as accurately as I remember, came with the game system itself.

I was admittedly terrible at it, often killing Mario by jumping just a wee bit too far or a wee bit too short, or by getting agitated and sending him straight into the path of an enemy. But I made my slow and careful way around the Super Mario World map–I even made it to the Tubular secret level, by some act of God.


This is the Tubular level, also known as “Where Bad Marios Go when They Die.” xD

Read on for reminiscing about Super Mario World, one of the games I (and many other gamers of our generation) grew up on…


The boss battle with Iggy Koopa, seen above, was very difficult for me as a six-year-old–I kept jumping around thinking I just had to get off the platform onto something invisible on the sides. Needless to say, poor Mario died in the flames quite a lot because of my stupidity. LOL


I remember hating the Roy section of the map because I couldn’t find the way to get to Roy’s castle. This Youtube video would have saved me hours of ROAR and frustration, back in the day.


Wendy Koopa’s boss battle (at the end of this video) was the reason I broke my first SNES controller–those stupid flame ghosts kept getting me, and if by some miracle I managed to avoid them, then the Koopas got me. At least I had the good sense to disconnect the controller from the system before chucking it full-force at the wall…


This is the Donut Ghost House, which allows you to get to both the next official level in the game, as well as a top secret area. I never found this top-secret area, to my knowledge, unless I blundered into it somewhere.

(Random childhood memory: I was playing a Ghost House level near Halloween, while Mom and Dad were watching some kind of scary movie upstairs. Right as I was fighting King Boo, a horrible scream rang out from the TV upstairs–and I just dropped the controller and ran. LOL! Poor Mario, abandoned to die in the Ghost House because I was too chicken to stay in the room. xD)


My favorite levels were the Star Road levels (seen in the video above)–not because they were easier, but because they were pretty. 😀 I also liked how they interconnected with each other, and had lots of secrets to explore. (Not that I ever found any of the secrets without help…or without accidentally stumbling on them. xD)


The Castle Theme track (available through this video) freaked me out as a little kid. *shiver* Still gives me the willies listening to this track!


Image source
Oh, how I hated the football-player guys that randomly throw baseballs. They always managed to tag me out, or jump up and catch me (like this one is doing in the pic) as I tried to avoid them. Fail.


The Cape Feather was AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE 😀 Even if I was a terrible flier, it was so COOL to be able to fly! (What I wouldn’t have done for this tutorial back in the day–it took hours of practice before I could get Mario to hold onto his cape like a parachute… LOL)


…And flying with Yoshi (as you might have seen already in the Donut Ghost House video) is pretty awesome, too. 😀 Start this video at around 0:55, and you’ll see!

For More Information

If all this reminiscing has made you want to play Super Mario World again, or perhaps play for the first time, you can play the game through the Wii’s Virtual Console system, as well as playing the slightly edited version made for the GameBoy Advance system. Or, if you still have access to an old SNES that still works, you can probably find a cartridge for this game floating around for cheap, and enjoy it as many gamers have done over the years!

Super Mario World @ MarioWiki
Super Mario World @ Wikipedia

When God Has to Get Our Attention

Amos 9:1-4

1 I saw the Lord standing by the altar, and he said:

“Strike the tops of the pillars
so that the thresholds shake,
Bring them down on the heads of
all the people;
those who are left I will kill with
the sword.
Not one will get away,
none will escape.
2 Though they dig down to the depths
of the grave,
from there my hand will take them.
Though they climb up to the heavens,
from there I will bring them down.
3 Though they hide themselves on the
top of Carmel,
there I will hunt them down and
seize them.
Though they hide from me at the
bottom of the sea,
there I will command the serpent
to bite them.
4 Though they are driven into exile by
their enemies,
there I will command the sword
to slay them.
I will fix my eyes upon them
for evil and not for good.”

Whoa. This sounds harsh. In fact, this is some of the harshest language we see God use through an Old Testament prophet. Outside of the context of the Book of Amos, and indeed outside of the context of the Old Testament, this passage seems to fly in the face of all who say that God only does good things. After all, God is talking about killing His people, even though they hide from him on the tops of mountains (like Carmel), underground, the bottom of the sea, and even in the middle of their enemies.

God’s Anger: Resolved, Not Raging

Let’s take a moment to consider what has happened, why God might be saying these things. All throughout the Old Testament, the nation of Israel has been waffling back and forth between worshipping other gods from other cultures and worshipping God, who led them from Egypt and has blessed them continuously. Not only that, the Israelites have been warring with themselves, forgetting commandments, and pretty much doing everything that God asked them not to do. The sacred worship sites have been profaned; no one in Israel, it seems, is interested in listening to God or following any commandments besides their own desires.

We know, from reading other parts of the Old Testament, that God relates to Israel much as a parent relates to a child. What does a parent do, then, when a child is being not only disobedient, but gleeful and willful about it? Most would say that the child needs punishment, to stop the unwanted behavior and to retrain the child’s thinking.

God has tried punishing in other ways before this, but every time, it has taken drastic measures to get Israel to stop behaving willfully (Noah’s Ark and the Flood, anyone?). This passage describes another drastic measure God is outlining here–this will be Israel’s punishment for drifting so far from God and refusing to listen. Israel has forgotten how omnipresent and omnipotent God is, and this passage reminds them (and us) that there is nowhere we can hide from God, no action or thought we can disguise from Him, because He is Almighty.

But What About Verse 4’s Ending?

Understood in this context, God’s anger is less out-of-control than it may have seemed at first; it’s more the anger of the parent trying to control an incorrigible child. But there’s still one more issue: why would God add that point at the end about “fixing [His] eyes upon them for evil and not for good?”

Admittedly, this is a disturbing phrase; in many other places in the Bible, God is referred to as being “holy,” never doing anything evil against anyone. Verse 4’s ending, therefore, can be horribly misleading…unless you know the rest of the context. God is not saying “I’m going to do evil things against you;” He is instead saying “I am going to punish you for the evil things you have been doing.” His eyes are fixed upon his people because of the evil they have been doing, and much like a parent resolving to discipline a child, God is going to have to be firm and a little harsh to straighten His children up.

Summary

For certain, this is not the most comforting part of the Bible to read. But this is an important characteristic of our relationship to God: when we do not follow His laws, just as when we disobeyed our parents, there will be retribution. It doesn’t mean God doesn’t love us, just as punishment from our human parents does not necessarily mean they have stopped loving us. In fact, God desperately wants to reconnect with us, just as He wanted to reconnect with the Israelites–He just had to get their attention first. And He is still trying to reconnect with us today.